Kelly's World

The Tenacious D set at the GC

It’s been an awesome weekend yet again. The weather has been off, but given the rest of the weekend I’m happy to let mother nature off this time. So far this weekend I have:

• Attended a Brisbane Roar match (which we unfortunately lost 2-1)
• Saw Tenacious D and Foo Fighters in concert
• Attended said concert with C, our first time at a music event together
• Had a great big sleep in, followed by home cooked eggs benedict

Today has pretty much been chilling out in front of the TV listening to the rain outside. I’m so relaxed, which is excellent. Work is so crazy, and I don’t have any spare time to stuff around. That explains the lack of tweeting during the day; for those who follow me on twitter, do you miss me? re: the lack of posts, by the time I get home at night I’m so shattered I just switch my brain off and zone out.

It’s the lead up to Christmas time too, which mean I’m due to write the family newsletter. Better get cracking on that. I’ve also only got three weeks to get the rest of the 52 in 52 challenges done, and at this point I’m not expecting to finish them. Ah well, $5 for each unfinished item go to charity, so at least it’s not all bad news!

Does anyone else feel like the end of the year is approaching too fast?

Due to low funds right now, this weekend is going to b a quiet one. Which is also pretty good in my books, I’m happy to have a chilled out weekend (who am I? Life used to be so action packed).

Today I’m planning on doing some much needed chores along the lines of dusting, vacuuming, mopping, picking up after the dogs, scrubbing the shower etc. You know, the FUN stuff. Followed by the Brisbane Roar football game this afternoon, in which I hope we manage to win (or draw, tho I’d prefer a win) so that we equal the Australian record for most games undefeated for of any sporting code. That would be awesome, and the exposure for the A-League would be phenomenal.

Tomorrow I’m planning on an early morning to go and climb Mt Coolum again, which I haven’t done in a long time. C is interested too, and given the weather lately we”re hoping to get up & down before it becomes insanely hot. Following that I’d like to go see a friend’s photography exhibition. The afternoon will be more chilling out and reading books so I can try to meet my 52 in 52 requirement. Let’s see how that goes (I’m currently reading the Steve Jobs autobiography, and really enjoying it).

What have you got planned for the weekend?

Photo credit: Katerha

Yesterday afternoon I drafted a blog post about how unhappy I was at the moment, and yet unable to put my finger on what it was that was making me upset. I didn’t manage to proof read it before heading over to a friend’s place, so I marked it as a draft and left it at that.

I deleted it. Today I’m writing about how happy I am.

For 2 days I couldn’t put my finger on what it was that was making me unhappy. To be honest, I’m still not entirely sure what it was. Yet I am now in a much better place, radiating happiness. I have C to thank for that.

Last night he made me talk about everything in my life until I was quite nearly brought to tears (two squeezed out, the slippery little suckers). We talked about anything and everything, and every time I thought of something worrying me I forced myself to talk about it. He discussed it with me, analysed it with me, and at the very least said the words that dropped the weight off my shoulders.

I have never had that kind of support before.

I have never felt so full of love for another human being before.

Tonight I sit here knowing that I have someone willing to go into battle with me, who will stand by my side no matter what I have to confront. He said such beautiful words to me, things like “you don’t have to face this alone”.

Every time I reflect on this year (I seriously can’t wait to write my summary at the end of December) I realise just how much my life has changed from last year, and I am so grateful. I have lifetime friends that I would do anything for and vice versa, I have made new friends and built confidence, I have a new job that will help me get where I need to be financially, and most importantly, I have my C.

As a new day dawns, I know that I am blessed. What a difference 24 hours makes.

Well that’s done. Over 10 years worth of memories reduced to a memory. Nothing physically remains anymore.

A few days ago I discussed the fact that I was preparing to burn over 10 years worth of memories in a post I titled “Dumping Memory Lane“. I took photos of the cooler stuff that I found (see the picture of the dragon in my post, that drawing was absolutely incredible) which I plan on uploading to facebook later.

The main item you can see in the picture above was a card made for me by my ex for our 2 year anniversary. I was 17 years old at the time, and he made the card for me out of a pizza box, aluminum foil and red cardboard. There were love hearts on the front, a “happy anniversary” note, and inside a long love letter combined with a photo of us together. During our entire 11 years of dating, this was the one thing that I always cherished. To see it burn was an amazing feeling that can only be summed up in one way:

I felt free.

We split up back in January, and the fact that I was still holding onto it speaks volumes to me. Sure I’ve moved on mentally (in fact, I’m the happiest I have ever been and I’m dating an incredible guy who I am absolutely smitten with) but I still carried this card around. It was still sitting there at the top of my cupboard, staring at me whenever I needed to get into one of my storage boxes. It needed to go.

I’m free now. That card and the rest of the burn pile are now a distant memory, and I can focus on making new memories with my new guy. The past is the past, and I have my entire future ahead of me.

I’m free.

Oh boy! Just when I think I will be able to recover from the weekend I look ahead and realise I barely have any free time this week either!

It’s my last week in my current job before taking up my new job, which means that it’s going to be absolutely crazy trying to document as much as I can for everyone before I leave. It actually hasn’t hit me yet that I’m leaving this place, and I’m not sure when it’s going to kick in. Probably not until I’m actually on my way to the new office for my first day at work! It’s been quite interesting for me to reflect on everything I do here, and wonder exactly how they’re going to cope. There’s a lot of knowledge in my head, and I don’t think they know quite I’m going to be taking with me. So far I haven’t heard from the bosses with regards to a replacement, so I don’t expect I’m going to be training anyone new this week. I’ve offered to help out after I’ve left though, so if they want me to train someone up after that I will mention I’ll fly down for the weekend as a contractor. I wonder how that will go down.

Tonight I’m heading to C’s place for a home-cooked 3 course meal. I’m still not entirely sure what I did to deserve that, so I’ll just have to assume that he’s amazing and just wants to spoil me.  I even received a text message with the meal outline and the accompanying wines – woo fancy! I hope I don’t have to wear a dress.

Tomorrow night I’m off to Noosa to show some business owners how to use twitter. This is a new thing for me, and it only came about because C and I were there having dinner last week and got to chatting with the owners. Eventually social media came up, and C pointed out I’m pretty obsessed with twitter (it’s true). I began explaining to them what it was all about, and that they should really get their business on there. They’ve asked us to come back to show them how to do it, and in exchange C is getting a baked cake from them. The reason for the cake is he was nearly orgasming over how good the cakes were that we had for dessert there. They were pretty incredible though.

In the foreground is a sticky date pudding, the cake at the back is a sour berry cake (C's favourite)

Wednesday night is the usual SCTUB trivia night at the Pig & Whistle, Thursday night I’ll be going to cheer on my netball team before doing some shopping for work clothes for next week, and Friday night I’ll be having an amazing degustation dinner with my father, sister, her girlfriend and C. Saturday night will be the most amazing halloween party ever (I’ll be spending most of the day setting up), and Sunday I will finally be recovering (although by “recovering” I mean “cleaning up the house after the most amazing halloween party ever”).

Looks like I still haven’t learned to sit still.